Wake UP my Love

Day 4: I wrote this as part of a poetry circle.

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I awake to yelling

To rituals, to angst

Nervousness, I don’t feel

Happy, pain I’d say I never feel at peace

My days begin and end the same

I know my heart, they know a name

A sleepless stranger walk among them

My 13 years leave waste to thoughts

Of longing for restful breathless sleeps,

Never waking up in coldness

Large and lonely empty spaces

Overfilled with lost connections,

Nothing ever feels like home

I awake to stranger feelings

Rain and flooding, levies break

I sit amongst the broken glass,

My life in pieces on the floor

A bed I’ve made of love and pain

His coldness fills the space we leave

The door never opens, and words never cease

He sees my eyes, but he doesn’t see

How zombies can still walk and nod

And nothing ever sounds ok

When lies replace your every word

I awake to fear and quiet

A wind that blows and whips and stirs

Something building rising climbing.

Echoes drum and news emerge

Wake up my love

She touches my skin and I smell her smile

My heart beats loud, my mouth is dry

My hairs stand up, my numbness fades

The bed feels warm, and the night was short

Should my dreams be any sweeter?

Sunset skies and playful laughter

Cannon balls and princess teas

My restless sleep hast left me be

For now, I enjoy my time awake